Ahhh, to dream the impossible dream. If it is impossible then wouldn’t it be a fantasy? Are dreams and goals the same thing? How are successes measured? I know a lot of this is just splitting hairs but something to consider.
I recently watched “Percy Jackson, The Lightning Thief”. When Percy and his companions ventured into the Underworld, Hades told them it was the land of lost hopes and dreams that never come true. Dante could have made that a level of Hell. To live an entire life without attaining your hopes and dreams would be a form of Hell. I know all dreams are not achieved but I do feel we all have to believe we can live them. Otherwise, wouldn’t they be fantasies?
I have the dream thing down pat. just ask snt of my previous teachers. I was the kid staring out the window with a glazed over expression. My mind clearly somewhere else. I am also decent at setting goals even though I tend to set them too high or too many at one time. The one that I always struggled with was the word success. It was always such a bad word because I could never get a handle on its definition.
Success is defined on google as, “the accomplishment of an aim or purpose”. It is also defined as, “the attainment on popularity or profit”. I had a distorted view of the word success. When I left home to attend college I was going to make something of myself. I had escaped. I was going to get that degree and didn’t need anyone or anything. It was my ticket to a big pay check, a classy job and proof of my success. As I blogged about in “I Believe In Me”. I worked hard to make others proud so when I did graduate it was actually a little of a let down. No big fanfare, no one was bowing and no job offers. I went to a few interviews with no luck. I was forced to take a minimum wage job working night shift in a convenience store. It was difficult. I barely made rent and had no money left over. My bedroom consisted of a 4″ foam mattress, a lamp and a cardboard nightstand. This was not my idea of success. I couldn’t tell my family that I was barely eating. I was embarrassed that I had left home to make something of myself and here I was with my big degree making less money than everyone else. Things continued to get worse. I wrecked my car and lost my apartment. I became even more stubborn, refusing to go home as, what I saw, a failure. Next, I moved into a relatives house and worked as a waitress at a pizza place. Most of my belongings packed in boxes in my car. Another month went by and I had given up on a career. I was done.
The phone call I dreaded. I called my Dad. “Can I come home?” I was tired, lonely and defeated. He was surprised that I even asked and quickly answered, “yes, of course you can.” I tell you this whole story to illustrate this point. All my mental suffering was at my own hands. Not because I fought for months to keep my independence. It was not because of my failure to begin my career. It was not because anyone else was disappointed in me. It was all because of my distorted view of success. I thought it was a big pay check. I thought it was a flashy job. I thought it was a powerful position. Turns out success is none of these. Success is found in your character, in your work ethic, in your legacy. It all cannot be summed up in a career. It is what you are defined by as a person.
Matthew 16:26, “What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?”